~Aviendha-chan

Today was quite a horrible day for me.. actually I've been feeling really depressed ever since thursday/friday or something..
I have no idea why! I'm just feeling stressed and unbelievebly anxious for no particular reason!!! and its so annoying 'cause everything is going quite well in my life(socially, though not that very well "artisticly") so I really should be very glad! but im not.. stupid effin sheit... o_<

Anywhoo.. today I was so stressed, for no particular reason. So I felt I needed to calm down, and what better way to calm down than to draw? 8D
Though the anxiety didnt get any better, 'cause I just couldn't draw anything... not anything good atleast.. (im blaming it on the paper.. o_O; )
and it was so awful! Because I don't draw as often as I used to, and i read somewhere that you need to keep on practicing not just to get better but even to be able to keep your current skills.. and that made me even more stressed!!

So I paniced!! I mean, I even had thoughts as "I'm going to kill myself if I've lost my ability to draw" came into my head (but I probably wont do it so dont worry xD)
Anywhoo, I took a few deep breaths and just sat down and drew some sketches of ppl from a magazine. It actually made me feel a bit better...

But still, I think I have to take some more time to just relax and draw now and then.. rather than just spending my time infront of the comp doing nothing...

I must fight! D<

muhaha!